as the Love passed by...

a heart is now undefinable...

what it has what it has lost..

now an indefinite step taken 

to bring it nowhere it used to be..

as the confusions always keep running after it..

as night seems to be all black and dull....

theres no way a light from an old oil lamp could ever make it vivid

as day never been so bright...

even the sun can't make u see what u can't see...

as glistering dew falling onto green forest .. 

while the shine of the sun slowly approach the sky..

chase away the horizon of dawn

 what every sapiens wish to have and wish to lost..

there is phrases...

and there are feelings...

that everybody could never  realized...

why should we wish for something that we never ever wanted..

some might says... god knows better what the best for u..

some might says... the things that we always push away.. 

is actually what we need the most...

but what i'am saying??

i shall say... if u knew yourself.. u wont have to spit those kind of words..

as those man of letters put such meaning in their words...

just to make it alive as it  was just a dream...

a dreams that u can only think when time passed by..

a dreams that u able to let go.. when u got another 

somehow after it make u tired some.. u surely will left it behind

so .. it just a words..

the words of a Adam to Eve...

the words of a mother to a child...

is what we should have put  into our bowl of thoughts..

sweet talker are damned...

believers are dumbs...

don't u ever think the best way is to dump those stupidness ..

stalker is bushes..

once u cut it off.. don't u ever forget to watch over it.. it might grow again and over again.. 

and u might not realized when u are actually trapped.

bustard never claim... as they have thoughts of bloody eminence of themselves..

what u shall call yourself then?

have you ever give it a think??

are you noble enough to be in such white plain satin...??or you just realizing that how you are after reading this...??

Being a Naive is Better Than Being A Rotten Meat In a Can Because At Least we've Been OurSelf  Rather Than Hiding in SucH Opaque Can AND Let UrSelf Rot... PeopLe Will  Just Throw U Away When They FinaLLy Found That U Do NO GOOD

Bersawang blog saye ni... insyaAllah lepas exam saye update ok!! wait for my return!!! 

Ha..... curik dr blog Kak Sya Lagi.. ngee..

Ha..... curik dr blog Kak Sya Lagi.. ngee..

20 tentang saya???  Ha.... jenuh pikio la...

SATU

- masa sekolah ke??? saye kalau amik barg suke amik banyak2 tak suke satu2.. 
so selalunye nomot saye 40.. 30.. hahahah!!

DUA

- 3 nama samar samaran

aaaa sat nk pikio...

- kak long kat rumah..

- mira kat kelas..

- nana kat irc.. ngee

6 TARIKH PALING PENTING

- 10 may   = Besday abah

- 14 may  = Besday mama

- 30 november    = Besday tuut!!

- 28  feb      = Besday adik tersayang!~

- 28 ogos   = Besday adik bongsu

- 26 oct     = besday my adik lelaki..

5 PERKARA YG ANDA WAT SEMALAM

-g kelas.. study... study... deting n bukak pose...

5 PERKARA YG WAT ANDA GEMBIRA

- biler result tak fail.. ngeee

- biler selaun masuk berkoyan!!

- biler boleh deting ngn dia...

- bilerbalik mesia....

- biler saye berjaya capai GOL saya untuk hari itu..

5 HOBI ANDA

- Membace

- Tenet

- deting n study...

- temenung and gomol2 ngn kucen

- aaaaa tatau dah... tidor kot.. ngee

5 TEMPAT PERCUTIAN ANDA

-venice

-rome

-australia

-spain

-paris

5 SEBAB JAWAB TAG NI

-no idea y i did this tag

-sebb bosann

-tatau nk wat ape

-sebb sunyi n perlu sumthing untuk melupakan kesunyian

-sebb ngantok tapi tamo tido

TIGA

7 THINGS BOUT U

- pempuan

- 21 tahun

- bujang /separa bujang

- sekarang dok kat mesir

- menangis kekdang menjadi rutin

- tak suke diganggu bile aku tengah moody

- suke n sygkan kucen..

EMPAT

ORANG YG PALING SAYANG

- family saya la....

mende yg plg suka buat

- haaa ngelat..!!!!!

mende yg wat anda plg bosan

- dok saje!! tenung skrin

if g kepci or mekdi mende pe yg plg ske mkn 
 sbab.??

- mekdi - suke apple pie.. sebb sedap la. kepci - cheesy wedges sebb
 i do love cheese

plg mnat sjarah? (paling minat sejarah??)

- boleh la.. sebb tamo bg slack result pekse...

bagi satu teka teki & jawapan sekali.. lepas tu mesti lucu 
atau misteri??

- cube toleh belakng?????

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haa!! sakit tengkuk tak?? itu la jawapan die.... 
(maaf atas kebodohan yg berlaku)

umah yg plg anda idam? (rumah yg paling anda idamkan??)

-Umah yg lengkap n hi tech n besar... ... 

Just Another Tagged Like Previous One

1.Apakah benda yg paling penting dalam hidup kamu

Lappy laaa  tanpa lappy sapa lah saya....

2. Apakah benda terakhir yang kamu beli dgn wang sendiri

semua benda la... sejak duk negara org ni...

3. Di manakah tempat impian perkahwinan kamu

haaaaa kaween kat kampung pastu hanimun kat europe... n australia... ngeeee

4. Berapa lamakah anda rasa hubungan anda berkekalan?

if do have one... i wish for long lasting happily forever ever after...

5. Adakah anda dilamun cinta?

yah!!~ indeed...

6. Di manakah restoran terakhir kamu makan malam?

bamboo with my auntie...

7. Namakan buku terakhir yang kamu beli?

Cinta 3 suku ( alaf21)

8. Apakah nama penuh kamu?

Nazratul amira bt. Fisol credit to mama n abah..

9. Kamu lebih senang dgn mak/ayah?

Kalau bab2 berbincang masalah ke hape seme ngadu dengan abah

Kalau bab2 duit / masalah wanita... pasal kawen... dgn ma ( we are exactly the same...)

10. Namakan seseorang yg kamu ingin jumpa utk pertama kalinya dalam hidup anda?

errr... NO ONE.. huu

11. Sebutkan 8 nama sahabat yg paling rapat dgn kamu

Untuk mengelakkan rase terasa di hati.. saye pilih untuk tidak meletakkan nama sape2...

12. Adakah kamu mencuci pakaian anda sendiri?

haaa tak lahh.. bukan saye... makcik sebelah rumah tolong cuci.. ngee ape la.. saye lah yg cuci pang karang!!~

13. Tempat paling seronok kamu mahu pergi

PErgi katel peraduan saye... ngeee sebb the place to go is the place where u can rest ur body n ur mind.. nowhere else except my bed... so lovely doesnt it...

14. Pelukan atau ciuman?

it can be both??? because i'll love it if i can have both... in package.. Ngeee (@_@)

15. 8 perkara yg amat saya gilai

- surfing internet

- layan youtube...!

- dah... dua jek. ngade la nak sampai 8 gile. Gile sikit2 sudah la eyh. Hik!

- kemas rumah n masak...

- gomol2 ngn kucen saye...

- chatting ngn si dia.. (saper ek)

- baca novel

- Study (paling last) ngeee

16. 8 perkataan yg sering diucapkan

- adeh

- har har har

- cool~

- mongok!~

- g mati plss!

- erks...l

- erm..

- keskeskes

17. 8 buah buku yg paling terbaru dibaca

perh! bebetol nk tahu ke ni?? jgn nyesal ok??

- physiology of human

- pharmacology for medical stud

- anatomy of human 

- histology

- pathology

- biochemistry

- microbiology

- parasitology

18. 8 buah lagu yg saya boleh dengar berulang kali

- Hindi songs

- espcially for u - mymp

- knife - rockwell

- tilu - ku bukan aku

- could i have this kiss forever - whitney ft enrique

- percaya padaku - ungu

- tentang perasaanku - irwansyah

- firework - katy perry

19. 8 perkara yg saya pelajari tahun lalu

- Jangan mudah menitiskan airmata

- Jangan byk makan kalu nak kurus ( takleh control la,... )

- Jangan terlalu mencintai... sakitnya tanggung sendiri (betul2) tapi still cant help it.. im keep falling.. how lah!!!

- Sayang kat org yg sygkan ak.. tau hargai ak dan boleh paham ak~ (exactly the same~)

- Jangan terlalu baik hati ( hurm empathy of mine is on everyone... really cant help it)

- Mulakan menabung ( paling susah) keskeskes

- study kene kuat!!!

- Ak percaya pada DIA... setiap kesakitan, kesedihan, dan kesusahan yg pernah ak alami... pasti 

DIA punya agendaNYA mengapa ak begini~ Redha... (betul) cayalah sis!!! 

P/s : /me masalas nk menaip sebenarnya... ngee

20. Apa erti cinta?

bak kata rahul (shahrukhkhan) - love means frenship har har har ( go die ok)

bak kata diri sendiri  - Love is about sacrificing and devoting.. when u willing to devote and sacrifices. ...then u are in love

1. Siapa orang yang kau teringin nak tampar?

Nak buat list ke???? ramai siot!!~ tambah2 gerangan yg suke menyusahkan hidup aku.. bukan takat tampo.. mau aku tembak ngn M16

2. Siapa kau nak jadi Sugar Daddy kau. Bagi sorang je, wajib Malaysian.

Ha... sape erk?? aku sugar2 daddy ni kureng diabetes nnti.. aiyar sapa mau jawab... sape erk?? tamo la kerepot sgt kan.. tapi nk yg kayaz... sape erk.. ermm

tayah la hebat2 sgt.. Tan Sri Muhyiddin yasin pun dah ok.. Ngee Peace!!

3. Siapa manusia paling annoying kau pernah jumpa? Siapa orang paling famous kau pernah jumpa? Siapakah orang paling vain kau pernah jumpa?

Annoying - My Ex Bf

Famous - Menteri Besar Perlis & Amir Diab

Vain - no IDEA & NO COMMENT (buat ala2 artis sikit) 

4. Apa yang kau paling harapkan dari pasangan kau?

truly n full devotions... im the one n only one..  no others women.. plus (+) he know how to snatch my parents' hearts away

5. Kau penah kentut dalam lif?

aaaaa soklan mengantoikan aku... nk jujur ke tak??? aaa biarlah hati je tahu keskeskes

6. Makanan paling jijik kau pernah makan?

Tade kot... huuuu paling jijik pun biskut lemau!!~

7. Rancangan Tv paling bodoh kau pernah tengok?

citer ape erk... haaa citer yg kunun2 nk tiru citer fairy tales la sgt tapi ya rabbi.... graphic gile bangang!!~

8. Kalau terperangkap dlm jem, pastu rasa terkencing, apa kau akan buat? 

sediakan disposable 1litre empty drinking water bottle?? or u guys got any better solution?heh..

9. Kau stalk hp or email kekasih kau tak atau share password fb/email?

erm.. tak pernah kot... yes even if we are couple... but still not yet married.. so.. i have my own freedoms the rights of a person to be independent is still mine.... so.. kalau takat nk share fb or password email.. no hal la.. selagi individual tu tak kisah (bila syg) ngee.. tapi kalau rasa tak selesa just straight jer... u can control but in very fine way so.. both of us will feel very comfortable.. (panjang lak jawapan ni... maap!!)

10. Kalau jumpa kucing kena langgar kereta dah separuh mati kaki putus, kau buat apa? hantar gi klinik ke, bunuh supaya tidak terseksa, atau lari menangis sebab tak sanggup tgk?

huuuu immediately bawak g jumpe vet berdekatan... i cant stand just to cry n watch... because i love to cats.. if  they hurts.. mean im hurts too...

11. Apa perasaan kau bile tengok cermin sorang2?A

alamak!!! lagi satu jerawat da... pastu.. bile lak aku inject angin lam pp aku.. cm belon je persisnye... (@_@)

12. Kalau kau jumpa gambar wanita bogel yang kau kenali (selain dari artis mahupun pelakon porn) dalam pc bf kau, apa kau buat? 

ku amek pc tu... ku hempuk!!! kat kepala bf ak bior muka die kuar ikot monitor.. pastu cable tu aku cocok kat bontot perempuan jalang tu tadi.. har har har nice circuit isn't it...

13. Apa kau buat kalau kawan kau asyik mengadu benda yang sama berbulan2? Pastu orang nasihat taknak dgr.

haaa kalau buah ni... aku kata ape tau.. wey.. aku habaq tamau dengaq pastu dok nyusahkan hidup aku.. hais.. kalau tak mo dengar jgn la ngadu buat je cara sendiri... tak pun dah tade idea sgt.. korek lubang kubo sendiri!~ pastu ko masuk dalam.. pastu ko kambus..~ tayah kapan pun tak pe.. jimat belanja urus jenazah sendirian berhad ok... sekian terima kasih...

14. Kalau nampak kawan ade taik hidung nak terkeluar, atau ade 2 helai bulu hidung yg terlebih pjg terkeluar dr hidung, bgtau direct ke, tarik tepi dan bisik ke, gelakkan ngan org lain ke atau buat tatau?

haaa aku tak cakap kot... aku tenung je...... pastu bile die tanye ' hang tenung apa wey.. aku tau aku comey.. jgn tgk2 malu' aku jawab balik ' haa mmg la comey sebb tu aku tgk tambah2  tu lombong bijih timah ko tu... taik bijih sampai terkuor2 ngn rumput2 sekali terlekat.' har har har 

15. Hantu dari filem mana kau paling takut?

setakat ni.. tade lagi kot.. paling takut pun.. Antu korea.. huuu...giler la... terkezut2 cukup 20 kali tengok! berenti jantung aku.. free je penggali kubo dapt duit sebb tolong gali kubo aku...

Assalamualaikum wbt...

dan salam sejahtera...

ngeeee~ :D

ok la... sebb lama tak update my blog ni rasa nya hari ni nk start ngn mukaddimah yang lazim la iaitu tak lain tak bukan update about myself...

few months ago i was in malaysia... sebb evacuation of the egypt malaysian student sebb ade riot tu kan... best giler kat mesia... sgt2 best ok... 

but now!!! im here again in alexandria... continue what i left to do here...

well there is a sad news  tht i need to tell i lost my cat... the orange cat which i named it as diddle.... died of internal bleeding of filariasis... 

erm... now the only one left is my snowy... n i love him very much... no one could ever imagine how much i love him...

then i started my studies.. classes as well as exams... been a very busy moment but still im stable... :) no worries at all...

with those all bad eyes and those probs coming n flowing into my life... im still very stable n still here continuing my study... Allah really hold me onto it... :D alhamdulillah~

nowadays i was attacked!! by flu n cold....   maybe sebb weather is changing.. from winter to spring so last week i got spring catarrhal... n now is about to change to the summer...  its pretty hot day but not as hot u guys felt in malaysia.. its hot... but u guys still feel comfortable.. n pluss my house is near the sea shore.. so.. nothing to be worried of i guess...

erm... wat else i shud tell... now is the seasons of exammm in malaysia as well as in here... hais...

i wonder if i ever live without exam week in here... har har har... kinda so not happening...

its been awhile since i hugs my mom n daddy... i miss my little sisters n brother... nothing here can be compared with what i have in malaysia... erm.. :((

tho things are not still the same... they are my properties n my strength after all.. no one can change nobody ever does... :)

well btw... nice writing in here... some expression of feelings to this kind of medium makes us feel better.... writing isn't bad... when u know where n when to do so.. just be urself n try to do the right thing that u think beneficial to u... u wont regret and there no blame will be place onto ur head when u did sumthing good for ur self...  its for our own satisfactions.. no one has right to deny what u know about urself.. only we know the best of ours n still He knows us all.. :)  

wassalam~

Rasa nya mcm lama gila tak update blog ini....

tebal giler sawang kalau jual leh kayazzzz saye.. har har har lebey kaya dr Husen Lempoyan! wow!!

tapi tu la bila nk strt blog je mesti blurr tatau nk tulis ape... adoi la... cemana erk.. T_T

n nasib baik la ade blog kak fasya leh la curi2 wat tagged.. hahahahaha best2!!!

eh alamek!! lupe bg salam kat diary kesayangan...

AssaLamuaLaikum wbt :D ngee 

 

XOXO to My Diary ni

1. Rancangan Realiti TV yang kau teringin sangat nak masuk dan kenapa.

nak masuk... roda impian!!! leh menang wang BESAR yahooo~ leh wat kawen har har har

2. Kalau diberi peluang masuk Amazing Race, siapa pasangan yang kau akan pilih.

aaa mesti la kekasih hati saye... tapi saye tak tahu sape.. cemana neh??? any solving??

3. Rancangan Realiti TV paling menyampah kau tengok.

mentor ngn af... baik aku belek buku bertimbun tu dr dok belek diorang nyanyi!! wat de hek la kan... ngeee (@_@)^^

4. Bakat yang kau harap sangat ada pada kau.

bakat ape erk... tatau ler.. har har tak penah nk tahu bakat tidor  kot... 

5. Kalau diberi peluang dan mesin masa untuk kembali ke zaman lampau, concert siapa yang kau teringin nak pergi tengok?

erm flamenco, jazz and orchestra n also theater...

6. Tattoo. Kau nak? Boleh. Tapi hanya satu, dan mesti tattoo wajah celebrity. Wajah siapa kau nak?

haaaa tattoo ke???? bley g mati ok... kalau nk letak pun.. aku letak la muke aku sendiri ape brg muke org... kalau nk letak muke org... aku buat tattoo kat bontot.. baru ade UmmPpPpPhh!