DeaR DiAry...

These passed few days..

us..

have being a great partner..

oh god...

my dream really come true!

Never thought 'these' will happen..

dnt wanna lose this feeling...

hopefully...

everything had spoken...

was a reality...

..::Dalam Hati Ada Taman::..

Wassalam..

datang...

pastu tetibe hilang.....

aku cari...

rata-rata aku cari...

at last jumper jugak~

pastu... die ilang lagi...

haissh...

aku cari lagi....

mcm awal2 tu

pastu jumpe....

pastu... after incubation period abes...

mmg tepat masa... terus die ilang balik...

aku rasa malas nk cari dah...

biar je die dtg sendiri ....

pastu satu hari.. bile die datang balik....

aku kate kat die...

"hai.. sila hilangkan diri peliz..."

sebb u r not welcomed here...

u r TROUBLESOME

u never be awesome..

u gimme headache...

even sumatriptan not able to make me feel better..

hik!

lagi pun.. penat la asik mencari jer...

so sebelum awak ilang kn diri lagi ...

Baik saye yang suruh awak ilang kan diri..

hehehe

and.. ade satu pesanan...

masa awak hilangkan diri nanti...

saya tkkan cari awak tau...

dan saya pun tak harap untuk awak cari jalan jumpa saya...

as i said u are troublesome..

hik!

p/s : sorry for those yg terasa... its for sumone yg i called MR.DISASTER.. kalo rasa tak puas hati.. sile puasklan hati anda sendiri k... and haaa luper pulak nk cakp... nak thu ape tak aper sayer nk panggil org mcm awak???

LOSER!!

ahaks thts the word..

sorry~

Wassalam

TENSION !!!!

Today....

i woke up from my long sleep..

feeling tired and itchy..

all over my body....

my brain smiling...

because it suddenly remember..

wat we talked last nite..

im straighten my bed sheet..

make it tidy...

its cost some efforts...

but...

my lips smile...

while my mind flash back all the memories..

b4 i closed my eyes last nite...

u made my day..

i went to my washroom..

looking at messy woke up face..

staring at myself over a mirror..

make me smile...

because...

in my mind i was thinking of u...

i was brushing my teeth..

am i really brushing my teeth??

i dnt even remember..

wat i actually did when i was in washroom..

because my mind was occupied with u...

i can only remember u..

n only u...

till now moment...

im not sure..

wat im doin exactly..

i am typing a blog post for my latest entry??

or..

im actually writing about u...

u drove me crazy...

u spin up my head up by just just smiling at me...

u melted heart...

by staring at me...

wat im actually doin..

i dont even realize it..

basicly...

it kinda funny..

because i dnt know my self..

n tht is wonderful thing...

is tht wonderful when we cant recognized ourself...

n not even noticed..

wat we were actually doin..

in some cases.. may b its dreadful

but wat im feeling is awesome...

^_^

dont wanna lose this feeling...

its more precious than everything..

^_^

p/s : dear... u really made my day.. n i shall thnk to u... for giving me such happiness without u realize it... im inspired with u presence... im lost... when u step away from me.. even a step... i wanna hold u... to be sure.. tht u never gonna leave me.. n always be by my side.. whenever i need u...

sebenarnya kan...

sayakan...

dalam lecture..

erksss

lecture ke???

praktikal rasanya...

ICDL

tapikan... sebenarnya...

prof tak datang lagi...

tak tahu ar ade ke tak ni..

ke nk cancel algi... dah banyk kali kot cancel...

tapi yg penting..

sempat lagi mengulor ni...

posting blog...

ahaks... syuttt tau... jgn bgtau org... kang kantoi..

ahaks...

seaelam kan... tgh ade lecture pasal parasitology tetibe ade idea nk post blog..

pasal parasit yg aku belaja tu..

tapikan...

balik2 terus lupe aku nk post..

nampak sgt tk igt lecture ajar ape..

ahaks..

mati la..

Dear Diary....

nak bagitahu satu jer...

today....

i let go the pain~

and

the most important is...

i can get over myself!!!

DEAR DIARY.....

heee...

hari ni dah oleh tarik nafas lega...

beban sikit2 menjauh...

load n burden yg selama ni rasa tak tertanggung...

rasa mcm sikit2 berkurang....

hari ni.. satu lagi burden dah rasa mcm terlepas dr bahu...

result dah kuar...

rasa nyer tak perlu kot publish kat sini...

tapi apa yang penting..

tade yg failed...

alhamdulillah...

walaupun cukup2 mkn... rasanya setimpal jer...

-_^(wink) kepada siapa yg tahu ape yg 'setimpal'

ahaks...

bersyukur sgt....

sebb bajet save n tak lari..

kalo failed dah kene bayar 100 USD

untuk satu paper...

huhuhuhu

tak ke lari bajet... kan2?

heee

malam ni tidur ngn hati yg senang...

esok bgun pepagi kene g kelas..

ade praktikal patho...

cant wait to see my life change...

^_^

If i could open a door to anywhre...

where will i go...

which place will i choose...

yes... mekah will be my first destination...

b4 its too late...

i wish to visit there even for once in my lifetime...

i'll bring along my family for sure..

venice, italy..

the my next choice ..i wish to visit...

the city of love..

i really wish to go there n spend my precious time there...

with my sumone... :D

rome n spain..

the most historical place in my mind...

feeling great about those place..

the art..

so awesome

new zealand...

the alps..

so mesmerizing..

n boleh minum susu fernleaf sekali :P

niagara falls

the most beautiful waterfalls i ever knew...

nk p ngn sidia...

create the most wonderful memories together...

once in lifetime...

my fantasy field...

whre i can find no one...

just me..

alone...

or maybe with him.. ^_^

the greatest happiness of my life if n only if i could visit there..

hee...

balik rumah... Home Sweet Home

to home whre my life begin..

dalam tu ada mama.. ada abah.. ada adik2..

back to the people whom i've devoted my life forever...

my last destination...

heaven...

back to the most powerful creator...

an eternity happiness..

-n-

my heart pounds again...

tak tahu kenaper... just suddenly

rase sedey...

rase letih..

exhausted...

n fed - up

my world is nothing..

people said as long as we breath..

we are always carrying a soul...

no matter where we go...

but the truth is..

im souless

being a medical student...

the term doesnt seem to be marvelous as hw it shud be..

everything makes me feel exhausted...

im not able to smile..

im not able to control my heart

feel like lost no where...

no path n no sign...

just darkness n confusion

being the first daughter...

words daughter.. doesnt mean i've to do nothing..

ermm...

a lot of things to settle up..

i dnt want to make anybody upset..

but i cant stop from keep hurting my own heart...

make it feel upset..

this thing worst n worsen...

sumtimes feel like i cant take it anymore...

its too hard.. n too heavy..

theres a time... when i could smile as bright as a sun...

i could feel everybody was laughing with me...

feel the same happiness..

theres a time... when i need sumbody for me to cry on...

sumbody to calm me down...

sumone to console me...

but i find no one....

there no one crying with me...

no one feel the same sadness as i felt...

feel like wanna give my head a shot..

this feeling really burnt my head off...

ermmm....

Hey Yah..... Dear Diary...

rasanya dah beberapa ari tk post ni... sebb sgt bz....

heeee

so... hari ni nk post sumthing....

last 2 days...

campus KULIAH TIB (faculty Of Medicine)

dah berubah tempat....

dr sharikh Kuliah TIb berpindah ke el mowasah Hospital....

agak jauh la... heee tapi kalo g ngn teksi standard jea... 3 genih~

pastu kan...

jalan nk masuk u tu kan....

seriously~

ok2 meh nk terangkan secara detail...

Depan Pintu masuk campus - Berpasir mak ai... (maklumlah..tak siap lagi...)

- Depan u??? ada tanah perkuburan... wew... leh wat operasi cari gali.. ala2 arkeologist gitu... ahaks

- Sebelah kanan u???? ada hospital terbiar...... seram gak ar.. mcm citer juon aku rasa

- sebelah kiri u?? ade landasan kereta api (antara irama yang mengiringi suasanan pembelajaran kiteorang....)

masuk lak dalam U aku... lift ade satu jer..... so kiteorang yg tak nk n malas nk menunggu ni.. terpaksalah menapak...

kadang2 sampai 6 tingkat~

fuh~

kuruh aku lama2 gini.... hik!

pastu kan.... lecture hall die kan~

muat2 ajer ngn kiteorang.... isk isk isk...

cian kan.....

tandas die.... isk3

oke2 nk tnye dlu... bg org perempuan selalu masuk tandas wat aper???

nk cari cermin kan....

tapi malangnya....

cermin tak disediakan....

agak anda kenapa??

fikir2 kan lah k...

malas nk citew panjang2..

walau pun sempit.. tapi seat die selesa la kalo nk dibandingkan dengn convention center kiteorang dlu...

pastu....

bangunan die mmg completely new.... departmentsssssss semua dirangkumkan dalam satu bangunan... ok la tu kan... kiteorang tak yah nk jalan jauh2...

tapi tula.... nk menapak naik tangga tu yg tak tahan...

ades~

pastu kan... kalo nk lapo tahap gaban kan... bek korang pose jek...

sebab ape tau... sebb kat situ takde kedai makan....

nk tgk kedai jual2 cikedis pun payah~

so bg girl2 yg MERAH tu...

sile2 rajinkan diri untuk masak dirumah dan bawa bekal anda.. okek??

bg yg lelaki pula~ hehehe pandai2 la ko jang...

heee ades rasa mcm berjela lak posting mlm ni.. heee

i better stop here dlu kot.. nnti2 post agik hik!

papai my dearie diary.... lap u poreber! muah!!

-wssalam-

huhuhu final dah nk dekat... ades.. penat oo ngn prac exam lagi... adeyy.. hhuhu.. dah le bnyk giler.sampai tak terstudy.... huhuhu cam hampeh jerk... mama abah.. kaka rindu... wish both of u ade kat sini teman kakak study... mama miss u... for adam.. thnks sebb support i... selama i kat sini... u bnyk support i.. thnks... hope we will together till the end.. abg kus!!! lap u.. kekeke waaaaaaaaaaa tulun tensi nih!!!!

hurm... dah lama aku bg cibum kat tuan kedai tu balik..... wendunye kat die... sunyi jek rasa... rindu sgt ngan dia... even die just accompany me 3 days jer... die siyes wat aku fall ngn die... sgt2 wendu cibum... waaaa cibum missed u damn much!!!! huhuhu hopefully u are doin fine... kalo ade rezeki.. i will take u back... but if and only if..... huhuhuh

wew.. last2 siap jugak... hehehe my new blog dah siap... this is the first post for this blog.... hopefully i will continue posting.... huhuhuhuhu da~~ (mukadimah jek ni)