Hey Yah..... Dear Diary...

rasanya dah beberapa ari tk post ni... sebb sgt bz....

heeee

so... hari ni nk post sumthing....

last 2 days...

campus KULIAH TIB (faculty Of Medicine)

dah berubah tempat....

dr sharikh Kuliah TIb berpindah ke el mowasah Hospital....

agak jauh la... heee tapi kalo g ngn teksi standard jea... 3 genih~

pastu kan...

jalan nk masuk u tu kan....

seriously~

ok2 meh nk terangkan secara detail...

Depan Pintu masuk campus - Berpasir mak ai... (maklumlah..tak siap lagi...)

- Depan u??? ada tanah perkuburan... wew... leh wat operasi cari gali.. ala2 arkeologist gitu... ahaks

- Sebelah kanan u???? ada hospital terbiar...... seram gak ar.. mcm citer juon aku rasa

- sebelah kiri u?? ade landasan kereta api (antara irama yang mengiringi suasanan pembelajaran kiteorang....)

masuk lak dalam U aku... lift ade satu jer..... so kiteorang yg tak nk n malas nk menunggu ni.. terpaksalah menapak...

kadang2 sampai 6 tingkat~

fuh~

kuruh aku lama2 gini.... hik!

pastu kan.... lecture hall die kan~

muat2 ajer ngn kiteorang.... isk isk isk...

cian kan.....

tandas die.... isk3

oke2 nk tnye dlu... bg org perempuan selalu masuk tandas wat aper???

nk cari cermin kan....

tapi malangnya....

cermin tak disediakan....

agak anda kenapa??

fikir2 kan lah k...

malas nk citew panjang2..

walau pun sempit.. tapi seat die selesa la kalo nk dibandingkan dengn convention center kiteorang dlu...

pastu....

bangunan die mmg completely new.... departmentsssssss semua dirangkumkan dalam satu bangunan... ok la tu kan... kiteorang tak yah nk jalan jauh2...

tapi tula.... nk menapak naik tangga tu yg tak tahan...

ades~

pastu kan... kalo nk lapo tahap gaban kan... bek korang pose jek...

sebab ape tau... sebb kat situ takde kedai makan....

nk tgk kedai jual2 cikedis pun payah~

so bg girl2 yg MERAH tu...

sile2 rajinkan diri untuk masak dirumah dan bawa bekal anda.. okek??

bg yg lelaki pula~ hehehe pandai2 la ko jang...

heee ades rasa mcm berjela lak posting mlm ni.. heee

i better stop here dlu kot.. nnti2 post agik hik!

papai my dearie diary.... lap u poreber! muah!!

-wssalam-

Dear Diary

Kalau rasa jiwa kacau...

rasa2 senyum macam mana yang sesuai ek....

macam ni ker...

or..

macam ni...

Then.... kalo rasa dunia ni...

ana yang punya...

nk senyum macm mana lak???

mcm ni ker...

or mcm ni....

pegang pedang melambangkan kuasa yg tak tahu tah ade ke idok..

(ke perasan je lebih)

kalau gila bayang mcm mana nk tunjuk ek...

mcm ni ker....

or...

ni gila jugak...

tapi bukan gila bayang...

mana satu nak???

kalo tetibe anda rasa anda nk bunuh org...

ape ur expression...

macm ni ker....

or....

like thiss....

ekekekeke...

yang pastinya ...

perasaan aku waktu ni...

seperti semua yang dinyatakan di atas..

so.

pleeeeeeeeeaaaaassseeeee!~

BEWARE OF ME!

B4 i slaP ur Face...

Better U slap UrSelf First....

Then

Iwill JUst Have To KicK Ur Butt oUt From MY Life...

So Miserable.....

im standing here...

looking forward...

trying to make my vision clear...

wat's waiting for me at the front...

im still standing here...

trying to turn my head back...

to look wat i've done in the past..

but i still not yet turning my neck away..

bcoz...

thre is a time...

whre my heart n my mind..

separate from each other..

as they dnt get along together..

as they were...

saying different words...

tell me different actions...

ask me to think ..

in differents way..

in the same situation...

feeling like...

im knocking my own head down...

tearing my own heart into pieces...

punching my own feeling making a big hole at the center...

as im not able to put them in the same thoughts..

in the same way of thinking...

time passed...

but..

im still standing at the same point...

with the same feeling...

with the same confusion..

time passed...

im still standing here...

moving nowhre...

not even a step...

the only thing i did is.. keep thinking...

shuld i turn my head..

back ...

i closed my eyes...

emptying my mind...

trying to calm my self...

persuade my mind...

as well as my heart...

not to hurt my soul..

and this meditation... come out with a way...

showing me a path..

the path of cure...

now.. im ready..

turning my head back...

to see wat i've done

all the mistakes...

all the memories..

neither sweets nor hurt memories...

i will not bring them together in my hand...

as they were passed...

i will let them be in the past...

n i will never bring them along with me movin' on grabbing my future

how could i have a new memories as the old ones keep hunting me..

haunted my life...

thts not the way i've chosen for my life...

i dnt wanna be a dummy...

as many people does..

keep moving in pain n misery

and suddenly..

fall down with no strength left..

even to move one more step forward..

they will not able to..

as they were fighting so hard...

bringing the past along on their shoulder...

and just lying down at the end...

regretting the mistakes tht they've done...

tears running down....

even hot summer cant dry them up..

neither the cold winter able to freeze them ..

everything is too late...

u r already halfway...

thre 2 choices....

be wised in thinking and electing..

ur choices made ur destiny

hell or heaven..

everything in ur hand...

-sakura-

A thousand kisses will never be,

Enough to satisfy my craving heart's plea,

Tommorrow will be the day I love you more,

Than today or yesterday or ever before,

Words and phrases will never do,

What my heart feels so deeply for you,

Deeper and deeper my feelings go,

My head is spinning too and fro,

I want you here, forever and more,

For our hearts to join and together explore,

Our hearts beat and beat as one,

Feel what I'm feeling, it's only begun.

Yet, my heart feels as though it's within a cage,

And slowly my desire turns to rage.

You are so close yet so far,

At times like this I wish upon a star.

I wish you were here and not over there,

Yet life is hard as well as unfair.

All I can do is wish and wait,

Until we meet again as that is our fate.

I love you more than my words can say,

And forever my love will grow each passing day.

Until the day I gently hold your face,

Kiss your lips within a candle lit place,

Hold you close and feel you near,

Kiss your cheek, whisper to your ear,

Feel your soft skin beneath my hand,

Feel your energy inside expand.

I'll wish for that moment as I always do,

And I've wished upon a star, it will come true.

Dear diary...

hari ni...

my bad day...

i really tot nothing good will happen today...

tapi...

Allah maha kuasa...

Die tidak kejam....

die anugerahkan juga satu senyuman...

menceriakan my dull day...

dari petang tadi...

macm2 masalah....

my heart pounds...

badan penat..

otak letih..

hati sakit...

tapi...

aku tetap teguh...

hatiku tetp berkata..

pasti ada hikmah ...

mengapa semua ini terjadi...

penantian yg sekian lama...

penantian yg menyakitkan...

penantian yg ku sangka bakal berakhir dengan kekecewaan....

penantian yg aku tidap pernah tahu bila akhirnya...

penantian yg memakan hatiku...

membuahkan sebuah rasa yg tak tergambar oleh kata-kata

seketika tadi...

aku mampu tersenyum.

and it is not a fake smile...

betul aku tersenyum...

kata2 yang tak seberapa...

mampu mengukir senyuman dibibirku...

yang hanya dihiasi keluhan berat..

menanggung beban dibahu yg entah bila akan hilang...

terasa hilang bebanku....

terasa ringan bahuku...

terasa terang duniaku...

semuanya berubah...

tiada apa yang mampu aku pohon lagi..

selain..

mengharapkan... perasaan ini sentiasa berkekalan...

agar duniaku sentiasa cerah...

tiada lagi petir yg memanah...

tiada lagi kilat yang menyabung...

biarlah ia ibarat taman..

yg sentiasa mekar bunga nya....

agar ada sedikit gembira buatku...

di celah2 kepayahan...

agar semangat ku tidak mati...

agar terus ia teguh...

melewati hari yg mendatang....

Dear Diary...

gambar ni kan... die tunjuk asap kat kepala jer...

nak tau aku berasap mcm mana???

ermm....

bad day ever...!!

waaaaa

elaun tak masuk2.....

duit tiket nk kene bayaq dah.. adui la... tensen2...

mana nk cekau~

mapuh la....

tulun~

pastu tk cukup lagi.... ade la hamba allah ni..

tetibe nk sound...

agak2 la...

haiya..... kalo salah kite ade je die nampak...

salah sendiri???

ade nampak???

tanggungjawab org die nampak..

tanggungjawab sendiri????

ade nampak?????

adui tulun la~

ni la kes org panggil...

habuk rumah sebelah nampak..... sawang kat rumah sendiri tak sedo.....

sabo jek...

Selamat hepi bufday dear... My dear seben...

wish u gud luck n hepi always... may god bless u forever..

wish u hepi... n success in wat u did in future...

.

if u received a missed call from.. Sumone u loved..

wat will u have in ur mind....

will u call them back??

or just let they call u again.... .

if u received a missed call... from strangers....

will u call the caller back??

or u will just let it be... becoz u have nothing to do with strangers...

if u received a letter.. a love letter.... from ur secret admire....

will u reply???

or just wait n see the next letter from the admirer...

if u received a letter .. a formal letter... asking u to reply them immediately....

will u reply them immediately as u were asked??

or put in mind... im so busy.... so i'll reply whenever i have free time...

if u received bouquets of flowers...

wat will be first actions n expressions...

will u smiling and searching for the sender??

or u will just let the flowers wilting...

if u received a stack of files...

wat will be ur first expressions n actions...

will u immediately check them up...

or... u prefer to say.. 'huh.. wat the F***'

answer these questions by ur own...

nobody need to know ur answers..

then...

evaluate urself...

hw wise u r...

in making decisions...

these small things....

provoked an enthusiasm...

sumtimes... u forgot... ur own priority...

wat is exactly u want in ur life...

juz becos these small things....

they're able to ruin ur entire life...

n those above are just an analogue...

for s simple evaluation...

tht may come out with greatest realization...

myself either not a good thinker...

even i sumtimes or to be precise

'a lot of SUMTIMES'

i do make a lot of mistakes....

n i do forgot to learn from all mistakes tht i've done...

becuz.. im also a human... just an ordinary human...

people said..

experiences.. is best teacher ever..

but.. hw many of them.... able to recall

all their experiences....

if u said... intel inside... is great processor..

dnt u know..

human brain is the greatest...

take a deep breath... n think..

wassalam

Ini gambo kat bahagian belakang... main entrance kat belakang...(bgi student malaysia la)

sebb lecture kiteorang kat convention centre kat depan....

belakang ni just academic department...

tempat practical clases...

dekat dengan university hospital....

semua kat situ....

ni pulak bangunan admin...

jauh giler dr kampus kiteorang...

Yg ni pulak... batch untuk faculty kiteorang....

ni la serba sedikit pasal u aku...

nk tahu lagi banyk....

click here

I can't sleep,

I just can't breathe,

when your shadow is all over me, baby.

Don't wanna be a fool in your eyes,

'Cause what we had was built on lies.

And when our love seems to fade away,

Listen to me - hear what I say...

I don't wanna feel the way that I do,

I just wanna be right here with you,

I don't wanna see, see us apart,

I just wanna say it straight from my heart:

I miss you...

What would it take for you to see?

To make you understand,

that I'll always believe (always believe)

You and I can make it through,

And I still know I can't get over you.

'Cause when our love seems to fade away,

Listen to me - hear what I say...

I don't wanna feel the way that I do,

I just wanna be right here with you,

I don't wanna see, see us apart (see us apart)

I just wanna say it straight from my heart:

oh, baby I miss you, I do...

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